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(no subject) [Jan. 24th, 2011|02:35 am]
This week = badass, but I like x.

Shopping w Natnat, idek we just anyohow walk.
Eat shop eat talk, spend money, eat shop eat talk.
Dog biscuits with Andre skating through town.
Volcom shopping w him, topshop topman spamspamspam
Idk what idk what, Lepak w Jomin @ NAC till 11++.
Buy clothes buy shoe buy bag buy this buy that.

Bitching about a freak, an animal, a pest till 4am.
Serves you right, dumbledore you go fly kite.
Fucken funny, xo girls.
Offend one = offend all.

Lastly, please fuck off and die.
Yea you, the pimpled face
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(no subject) [Jan. 21st, 2011|02:30 am]
oh, and please leave me alone. I don't love you no more
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(no subject) [Jan. 21st, 2011|02:20 am]
Lying in bed, music in my ears as though mariah carey was right next to me. Love this feeling, hate myself for being such a dumbfuck with no talents.

Mmhmm
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New Year Res shit. [Jan. 17th, 2011|12:29 am]
Pft, a bit late but better late then never.

1. Promote to J2 in 2012
Haha I don't want to retain, in whatever school I go to.
I'm not rushing any where but I don't want to be behind in my years.

2. Do my homework
I probably only did like 10% of my homework in TKGS. Out of that 10 I guess 9 was pure nonsense. Got to put in some consistent effort so that I can achieve resolution 1.

3. Attend Sunday lessons and be vegetarian every Friday.

4. Meet up with my girls regularly, study together?
I hope Shalyn and I get into the same school so at least I have a green companion.

The rest are p&c!
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(no subject) [Jan. 16th, 2011|11:29 pm]
O right, I know they say that friends are supposed to be there for each other. But has it occured to you that the word 'each other' suggests its mutual?

I hate it how I'm trying to buy you a gift but you seem uninterested, how I'm trying to find chances to meet you but I'm not even worth any time.

Okay I know you're busy, I know this I know that.
But most importantly I know that I've already lost you as someone special, and I don't want to you lose you again.

Ya whatever.. Friends
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(no subject) [Jan. 13th, 2011|02:45 am]
please accept me
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(no subject) [Jan. 2nd, 2011|06:01 am]
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
when there're many thoughts and feelings that you hide.
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Two turtle doves [Dec. 27th, 2010|03:05 am]


 
 

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Thanks for close captioning my pain. [Dec. 23rd, 2010|02:00 am]
It's kind of funny how I have well over a 100 contact numbers in my phone,
but I only text 5 or 6 on a regular basis.

Some days,
these few people just happen to be busy all at the same time,
and I start feeling void just because I have no one that I can comfortably talk to.

I just want to distant myself from people sometimes,
but sometimes I really need company.
Does that even make any sense?

3 Tentative plans tomorrow,
but all I want to do is just sit by the beach,
hear the waves crash the shore and read my Sidney Sheldon book.

 I'm not exaclty feeling myself, sigh.
Why do I only write on LJ when I'm upset or nostalgic :(



 

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(no subject) [Dec. 11th, 2010|12:53 am]


Except the fact that we do not have a car or a license,
the idea was pretty much cool and I'm sorry that I have to give it a miss :(
They're screening Shrek2 @ the F1 pit tomorrow and I'll be stuck at work,
but never mind!  I'm earning 10 bux an hour tomorrow

So, goodnight!
 

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Feeling undefined. [Dec. 6th, 2010|12:02 am]
 


Maybe I if I were less introspective, I'd be happier.
I mean, it feels good to have pondered all day and eventually reach a sound resolution.
But the problem lies with not reaching one,
and I honestly have no idea how to cope with so many things going on my mind.

Reading 'Perks of being a wallflower' helped a little.
Considering the fact that I find comfort in knowing that someone actually puts in 
the same amount of good thought in passing trivial events as I do.

I'll love to spend one of this rainy December evenings alone,
reading a book at the Starbucks in Citylink  with a cup of my favourite Javachip. 
Or even just listening to the Beegees on my Ipod while watching people pass me by.

And maybe reach a point of realisation about the impermenance around us,
that people brush shoulders and never look back.

A chance to pinpoint on how my absence or presence don't actually make a difference,
and an explanatiion for the panicky tears I sometimes succumb to, 
when I stare into the mirror so hard,
but I don't see a thing in who I see.

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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2010|11:52 pm]


You know Angel, the first thing I need to say is that I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that you've always been there for me but I was never there for you.
I'm sorry as we both grew older, we started spending less time together.
The walks got lesser and lesser with each passing year,
Dad took over showering you while I was busy with the school term.

I remember when you first joined the family,
you whined while you were in the car as we left the pet shop.
You slept in the bath tub alone, Dad went to company you.
Countless scoldings because you weren't peeing right.
You were so small I could hold you with one arm.

Then you grew bigger and physically more capable.
 Your shenanigans started,
from stealing Bakwa on CNY to creating a hole in the parquet below my bed. 

It hit me hard, that maybe for the first time,
I won't have any dog like you licking my tears off when I cry or cuddling on my lap for a short nap.
Barking at me for food or walking me instead of being walked when I bring you down.

Nothing and no one to greet me at the doorstep
with a crazily wagging backside or no one to irritate me + wake me up in the morning.
And worst off, having to one to sleep to.

This 8 years, I've been insanely attached to you and I honestly don't know how to cope with this.
But I'm just gonna keep praying and I know whereever you go,
around me or among tha stars in the skies,
You'll be happy and loved, like how I will always love you.

x, Your Jie jie




 

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Bewitching secrets [Nov. 27th, 2010|01:08 am]
Photobucket

Hello from Taiwan,
This place is beautiful but I want to go home.

Took Singapore Airlines Airbus, experienced slight turbulence just as I had to answer natures call. Guess God had it planned and my period came! Which also means no hot spring and that I don't have to show my ugly body.

Watched The Proposal and Salt on board and I hate the food. Arrived in Taiwan and met my Aunty and Uncle. They drove us to our hotel...

To be con't(I am fucken tired)
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Just a dream [Nov. 22nd, 2010|01:12 am]
Woke up at 6.15am today for the 4km charity run at ECP.
Made it back alive with minor blisters on my feet.
As usual, the last day before we leave is always chaotic.

Sent Angel for grooming before having Tzechar for dinner.
Picked her up and sent her to be under Granny's care while we are away.
I'm already missing her :( but at least I know that she's in good hands.
Drove to Riverplace @ Clark Quay to park the car.
Took a cab back and started packing my luggage.

I know you forgot and neither am I going to remind you.
I honestly feel hurt that I became unimportant so quickly.
But this isn't the first time anyway, so whatever it is,
I'm still going there to whiff the smell of lavenders,
Soak in the hot springs, enjoy the steamboats
have as much bubble tea as I like
and return to Singapore unrecognizable.
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Happenings [Nov. 15th, 2010|04:39 am]
 














1. Dyed our hair.









2. Shopped till we dropped








3. Lepak + chillax




4. Then, Indulge.

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^^ [Nov. 10th, 2010|03:24 pm]














Hello Belly Baby,
Thanks for being there for me all the time!
I like how we sing Lucky over the phone
and how we can never run out of things to say.

Oh, and I like your new laughter too.
Uh huhh huhh.
 ^^v x



Hi Karen,
I miss you because we don't talk as much as we did last time.
But I like it that Anna, You and I are Breasties
and You're always helping me out of my sticky situations.
" Let's go out " Haha x.



Aww man Chiachia,
I like that you're number 5 and I'm number 6.
Because at least I have a Chiobu lab partner.
I like how you frown when you meet me
and start scolding me for leaving you alone.

& THAT WE'RE MARRIED ON FB!



Mojo jo jo.
I like it that you don't remember thing I do, and remember things I don't.
You stylo mylo and CAL1994.
We can duet Wu Ding while Anna takes the instrumental chords.
And you come to my house eat Lak Chiong and study with me (FAIL)
 I like your ba hu confetti attitude.

I GOT JOE X.



Natnat,
I like that you do what you like and buy what you like.
Eat what you like say what you like.
That we talk about OompaLoompa's father's motorbike
and their royal voyage to Malaysia.

I like that we were supposed to be studying
and met each other a f21 coincidentally anyway. Lol x
WHY WE GOT NO BRO FIST D:

Oh and the best part of my girls is that we can communicate without talking.
Like how we look at each other across the classroom and start laughing altogether.

XX

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(no subject) [Nov. 10th, 2010|12:59 am]
You neglected me,
You rejected me,
Then you despised me.

You took away my ability to trust.
You used my love.

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(no subject) [Nov. 6th, 2010|07:37 pm]
Well for me it's waking up beside you,
To see the sunrise on your face.
To know that I can say I love you,
In any given time or place.

It's the little things that only I know,
Those are the things that make you mine.
And it's flying without wings,
Cause youre my special thing,
I'm flying without wings.

And you're the place my life begins,
And you'll be where it ends,
I'm flying without wings,
Cause thats the joy you bring.
I'm flying without wings.
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(no subject) [Nov. 5th, 2010|12:08 am]
www.formspring.com/donnachua heh
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(no subject) [Nov. 4th, 2010|11:06 pm]
Ok, maybe I'm not exactly in any position to pinpoint other's actions because I'm not doing superb in life myself, but wtv I just have to get it of my chest. Not that it's bugging me or worming into my mind. I just thought that you might want to know how you present yourself to people.

Honestly, I don't give a fuck whether you're older then me, more experienced in life or whatever shitbased logics that your shit mind can probably come out. All I know is that I respect people who deserve my respect regardless of their age or education level.

So whats the point of picking on all your flaws all the time, it obviously doesn't make anyone in the right mind feel good. So if it doesn't feel good, why not quit it? Or are you just another sickening attention seeking bitch who needs any Tom Dick or Harry to tell you you're beautiful when you wallow into your own flaws to make you feel good? Okay, maybe it's some esteem issues but technically, people with low self esteem don't go around saying that they have low self esteem to further aggravate the condition. It just flatly contradicts and defeats itself, if you get what I mean.

Why can't you seem to accept that youre above average in terms of looks? If you hate being beautiful so much, why don't you give some to me? Or just get rid of your pretty face with some scars, only then you'll be happy?

If you really hate the attention, then why don't you just ignore it? Don't you know that gloating about it would only bring more attention? Maybe your're just trying to be humble or exhibit some sort of quality so that people wouldnt mistake you as an airhead but in my honest opinion, you're as disgusting as any chao ah lian you can find in Malaysia or a prostitute in Geylang. You can choose to ignore it but ohwell I guess thats how you function, thats why you're always the same old sickening you.
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(no subject) [Nov. 3rd, 2010|01:50 am]
Hai Gaiz, I'm shipping in stuff from Ralph Lauren USA:
Tell me if y'all are interested in getting anything.
They're having a sales + US dollars has been going down.
Some stuff are pretty much a steal.

My blog is so boring and I haven't been actually updating.
I'll probably start after O levels because theres so much in stall for me :)
I need to get so many things, a new bag ( my white zara one died ),
and prom heels because the jefferey campbell ones can't come on time.
Of course, lots of nice clothes.

Need to neaten up my brows, dye hair and maybe I'll perm it.
And most importantly, tidy up this war zone I'm living in.
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(no subject) [Nov. 2nd, 2010|03:09 pm]


也许你已经放弃我,
也许已经很难回头,
我知道是自己错过 ,
请再给我一个理由说你不爱我。
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(no subject) [Oct. 31st, 2010|09:14 pm]
We must face the choice of doing whats right, and what is easy. -Dumbledore
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(no subject) [Oct. 26th, 2010|11:28 pm]
OK IM STARTING TO FREAK OUT, I HAVEN'T DONE A SHIT FOR LIT AND SS
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(no subject) [Oct. 21st, 2010|12:41 am]
I urge for people who are currently announcing to the whole
god damn world about how stupid they are, with their insensitive and blunt remarks
without even getting the situation or the procedures of it's happenings
to shut the fuck up in effort to keep the remaining respect others have for them.

What happened to empathy.
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(no subject) [Oct. 11th, 2010|02:46 am]
I can't sleep because my sleep pattern has been erratic for the past week.
Lent Karen my E72 and now I'm study with this nonsense Blackberry storm.
I hate touchscreens + it lags.

dammit 2 weeks to O's.
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(no subject) [Oct. 8th, 2010|01:17 am]
Control + Alternate + Delete
Task Manager > End Task

Refresh

A new start.
Made a mistake, moving on.
I never thought I'll see this side of you.
"Me too?"
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(no subject) [Oct. 3rd, 2010|11:56 pm]
Something clicked,
I want to fight for human rights
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(no subject) [Sep. 27th, 2010|10:17 pm]
For the world to see:
I fucking hate this dysfunctional family.
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(no subject) [Sep. 23rd, 2010|09:23 pm]
Meeting smelly700 tomorrow, guess I'm kinda looking forward. I shall complete Crescent Girls' Math prelims before I turn in for the night.
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(no subject) [Sep. 22nd, 2010|09:40 pm]
Tietze syndrome hurts
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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2010|11:54 pm]
Spent the whole 3 days after prelims shopping and partying. Friday, immediately after our mcq paper, Jo Bella and I went to Bugis to get Koi + meet Anna's buyer. Bought my bikini, of which I chanced upon @ sheer romance, iluma. Went off to ion where I bought my blazer, swallow earrings and f21 top. This is why I'm officially broke.

I think I'm having an identity crisis because I just keep buying perfumes and idk which one to wear. Anyway, Nat and I are boycotting TommyHilfiger because we're asian, and TH's boss openly expressed distaste for Asians that wear their products.

Had fun partying @ MarinaBay residence and I can't deny that Singapore has a pretty skyline.
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(no subject) [Sep. 9th, 2010|10:51 pm]
I'm dying.
Kthnxbai.
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(no subject) [Sep. 7th, 2010|04:04 pm]
Things to do after O's:

1. Watch the sunrise
2. Street Jazz
3. Poolside party @ Jo's
4. Taiwan & HongKong
5. Kbox
6. Shopping

Okay I'm pretty sure there's more to these but we'll play by ear. I kind of decided on my prom dress already. It's be some thing a DonnaKaranNewYork drop back strap dress, black and I think I'm doing my make up @ shuumera. Jomin and I are toying with the bareback idea, in hope that we don't get caught for being too revealing.

Taiwan and HongKong this year, which continues my family''s unbroken streak of visiting HongKong for the past 4 years. Taiwan's pretty new although the blood supposingly runs in me. Meeting my Taiwanese cousins there before going to a resort near the countryside together. The last time I saw them was in 2003, and I guess it would be a 100percent necessary to put a fake smile and try to speak in fluent chinese without embarassing myself.

But before that, it's 50 something days to O levels.
I think I'll make it through alive, i think.
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(no subject) [Sep. 6th, 2010|12:15 am]
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I hate my eyes [Sep. 2nd, 2010|11:16 pm]


Emath paper today was alright.
Honestly the first time I felt a little bit of jitters sitting for an exam.
I semi screwed up my SS hypothesis question,
tried to reach a balanced argument but I don't think my is valid.
Wtv.

Higher Chinese and Amath tomorrow,
and didn't do a single shit today to prepare myself for it.
It's the 2 subjects that I'm not counting in my L1R5 anyway.

On a lighter note,
I think I gained some weight from all the dinners I've had.
Dinner at Four Seasons last week, had Herbal Glazed Baby Chicken,
of which the chicken didn't turn out to be that baby sized at all.

Tzechar on August 29 with my cousins @ Bukit Batok.
Triple 3 buffet at Meritus Mandarin on the 30 and Thaipan on 1 Sept.
Anna over rated Triple3, or maybe it's just not my cup of tea.
Wish we had gone for The Line at ShangriLa.

We got lost at Mandarin Gardens, the restaurant is so secluded I swear.
But the foods damn good and reasonable.
I love Thaipans butter squids.
I'm bringing the girls next time haha.

Today's Angels birthday.
Happy Birthday Angel, I love you.
xoxo





 

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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2010|11:52 pm]
Screw physical geog,
Screw human geog more.

Fml.
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2010|02:11 pm]
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(no subject) [Aug. 27th, 2010|06:56 pm]
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.

This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

I'm sorry that I miss you every now and then.
There's nothing I can do about it.
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(no subject) [Aug. 24th, 2010|09:42 pm]
God bless the victims of the Manila bus hijack crisis, watching the live broadcast of it made me so sad. When i saw the gunshots fired and the body jerking and slumped out of the bus door, i prayed. I hope with all my heart that such a thing will never happen again. Rest in peace.
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(no subject) [Aug. 21st, 2010|02:05 pm]
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(no subject) [Aug. 21st, 2010|01:11 am]
I C A N N O T.
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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2010|02:52 pm]
It hurts to love someone when you can't tell them what you really feel. 'Cause sometimes we get hurt without them knowing. We get jealous without having the right to feel that way. We want their time without being in the position to demand for it.

'Till our heart is breaking in silence, but despite it, we continue to love. 'Cause somehow in this hurtful love, there's still the hope of having simple moments with them

Even if it means just being a friend.
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Inception [Aug. 18th, 2010|11:51 pm]
I need to know what is on my subconscious mind, serioulsy. I had a pretty unpleasant nightmare, and Jason just had to remind me that it is the 7th month. My nightmare started in a hotel lobby where I was waiting for the lift. When the lift door opened I walked in and saw my reflection in the mirrors. I had an extra eye somewhere near my nose bridge and it had eyelids and eyelashes. Something like er lang shen.

Okay, so I don' know how I somehow ended up in the hotel room and I started crying. Tears were flowing out from the third eye as well and I started trying to use my fringe to cover it. I told some undefined character in my dream that I wanted to sew up the third eye so that it would look like a scar instead.

I remembered trying to use it to see, but I couldnt unless I focused hard enough, then I could see circles through it. And there was no end to my dream. The first thing I did when I woke up was touch my face to feel if everything was normal. I don't want an extra eye for sure.

Jason say I should pray, I will tomorrow. Spare me any dreams tonight. X
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(no subject) [Aug. 15th, 2010|11:28 pm]
Felt a little bad about everything in my life today.
Like a tinge of sadness and remorse worming into my mind. I'm sick and tired of waiting for something to happen, all you all do is prolong it and that only hinders me from moving on.

I was afraid that you'd give up on me.
I hope you have not,
& I never want that day to come.
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(no subject) [Aug. 14th, 2010|10:46 pm]
There are weird similarities between Abraham Lincoln and John F. Kennedy. * Abraham Lincoln was elected to Congress in 1846. John F. Kennedy was elected to Congress in 1946. * Abraham Lincoln was elected President in 1860. John F. Kennedy was elected President in 1960. * Both were shot in the back of the head in the presence of their wives. * Lincoln was shot in the Ford Theatre. Kennedy was shot in a Lincoln, made by Ford * Both wives lost their children while living in the White House. *Both Presidents were shot on a Friday. * Lincoln's secretary was named Kennedy. * Both were succeeded by Southerners named Johnson. * Andrew Johnson, who succeeded Lincoln, was born in 1808. Lyndon Johnson, who succeeded Kennedy, was born in 1908. * Lincoln was shot at the theater named 'Ford.' Kennedy was shot in a car called 'Lincoln' made by 'Ford.' * Lincoln was shot in a theater and his assassin ran and hid in a warehouse. Kennedy was shot from a warehouse and his assassin ran and hid in a theater. * Booth and Oswald were assassinated before their trials.
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(no subject) [Aug. 9th, 2010|11:57 pm]
Caught the National Day fireworks at St Andrew Cathedral,
not the best view, but beats nothing at all.


To someone I wish I could meet now:

Dear you,

I'm pretty certain that you're unaware of this but I think it's only right for you to know.
I sometimes blame you for causing me contradicting emotions, which I selfishly choose to evade.
Maybe it is my incapability to cope with such overwhelming problems of my own,
to an extreme extent that I hope that all these would slowly dissolve in my disregard,
and one day I'd just fail to remember your name.

Selfish as I am, but tonight I wished you were right here with me.
Playing with my hair or leaning closer to get the better of my scent.
And even though every bit of me wants to call you my own again,
I know that even if circumstances allow, thing will never and can never work out at the age of 16.
Brutal and tragic it is, nothing lasts. Soon, all these would be gone with the wind -  just like before.

Although this contradiction hasn't died yet, I hope it soon will.
Because only this way, can we attain happiness.
To be honest, I was never happier and I want it to last forever.
I know forever is a long time, but I'll keep trying.

Just so you know, If anyone doesn't treat you right. I'll be there.
I'll remember you,

me, x.


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(no subject) [Aug. 3rd, 2010|08:47 pm]


BE LIKE AN ONION, WHEN PEOPLE HURT YOU
MAKE THEM CRY
-jong
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(no subject) [Aug. 3rd, 2010|08:38 pm]


But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you.....
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Day 07 [Jul. 30th, 2010|08:40 pm]


A picture that makes me happy
my girls.
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