It's kind of funny how I have well over a 100 contact numbers in my phone,
but I only text 5 or 6 on a regular basis.

Some days,
these few people just happen to be busy all at the same time,
and I start feeling void just because I have no one that I can comfortably talk to.

I just want to distant myself from people sometimes,
but sometimes I really need company.
Does that even make any sense?

3 Tentative plans tomorrow,
but all I want to do is just sit by the beach,
hear the waves crash the shore and read my Sidney Sheldon book.

 I'm not exaclty feeling myself, sigh.
Why do I only write on LJ when I'm upset or nostalgic :(



 

Except the fact that we do not have a car or a license,
the idea was pretty much cool and I'm sorry that I have to give it a miss :(
They're screening Shrek2 @ the F1 pit tomorrow and I'll be stuck at work,
but never mind!  I'm earning 10 bux an hour tomorrow

So, goodnight!
 

 

Maybe I if I were less introspective, I'd be happier.
I mean, it feels good to have pondered all day and eventually reach a sound resolution.
But the problem lies with not reaching one,
and I honestly have no idea how to cope with so many things going on my mind.

Reading 'Perks of being a wallflower' helped a little.
Considering the fact that I find comfort in knowing that someone actually puts in 
the same amount of good thought in passing trivial events as I do.

I'll love to spend one of this rainy December evenings alone,
reading a book at the Starbucks in Citylink  with a cup of my favourite Javachip. 
Or even just listening to the Beegees on my Ipod while watching people pass me by.

And maybe reach a point of realisation about the impermenance around us,
that people brush shoulders and never look back.

A chance to pinpoint on how my absence or presence don't actually make a difference,
and an explanatiion for the panicky tears I sometimes succumb to, 
when I stare into the mirror so hard,
but I don't see a thing in who I see.

You know Angel, the first thing I need to say is that I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that you've always been there for me but I was never there for you.
I'm sorry as we both grew older, we started spending less time together.
The walks got lesser and lesser with each passing year,
Dad took over showering you while I was busy with the school term.

I remember when you first joined the family,
you whined while you were in the car as we left the pet shop.
You slept in the bath tub alone, Dad went to company you.
Countless scoldings because you weren't peeing right.
You were so small I could hold you with one arm.

Then you grew bigger and physically more capable.
 Your shenanigans started,
from stealing Bakwa on CNY to creating a hole in the parquet below my bed. 

It hit me hard, that maybe for the first time,
I won't have any dog like you licking my tears off when I cry or cuddling on my lap for a short nap.
Barking at me for food or walking me instead of being walked when I bring you down.

Nothing and no one to greet me at the doorstep
with a crazily wagging backside or no one to irritate me + wake me up in the morning.
And worst off, having to one to sleep to.

This 8 years, I've been insanely attached to you and I honestly don't know how to cope with this.
But I'm just gonna keep praying and I know whereever you go,
around me or among tha stars in the skies,
You'll be happy and loved, like how I will always love you.

x, Your Jie jie




 

 

Hello Belly Baby,
Thanks for being there for me all the time!
I like how we sing Lucky over the phone
and how we can never run out of things to say.

Oh, and I like your new laughter too.
Uh huhh huhh.
 ^^v x



Hi Karen,
I miss you because we don't talk as much as we did last time.
But I like it that Anna, You and I are Breasties
and You're always helping me out of my sticky situations.
" Let's go out " Haha x.



Aww man Chiachia,
I like that you're number 5 and I'm number 6.
Because at least I have a Chiobu lab partner.
I like how you frown when you meet me
and start scolding me for leaving you alone.

& THAT WE'RE MARRIED ON FB!



Mojo jo jo.
I like it that you don't remember thing I do, and remember things I don't.
You stylo mylo and CAL1994.
We can duet Wu Ding while Anna takes the instrumental chords.
And you come to my house eat Lak Chiong and study with me (FAIL)
 I like your ba hu confetti attitude.

I GOT JOE X.



Natnat,
I like that you do what you like and buy what you like.
Eat what you like say what you like.
That we talk about OompaLoompa's father's motorbike
and their royal voyage to Malaysia.

I like that we were supposed to be studying
and met each other a f21 coincidentally anyway. Lol x
WHY WE GOT NO BRO FIST D:

Oh and the best part of my girls is that we can communicate without talking.
Like how we look at each other across the classroom and start laughing altogether.

XX

You neglected me,
You rejected me,
Then you despised me.

You took away my ability to trust.
You used my love.

Emath paper today was alright.
Honestly the first time I felt a little bit of jitters sitting for an exam.
I semi screwed up my SS hypothesis question,
tried to reach a balanced argument but I don't think my is valid.
Wtv.

Higher Chinese and Amath tomorrow,
and didn't do a single shit today to prepare myself for it.
It's the 2 subjects that I'm not counting in my L1R5 anyway.

On a lighter note,
I think I gained some weight from all the dinners I've had.
Dinner at Four Seasons last week, had Herbal Glazed Baby Chicken,
of which the chicken didn't turn out to be that baby sized at all.

Tzechar on August 29 with my cousins @ Bukit Batok.
Triple 3 buffet at Meritus Mandarin on the 30 and Thaipan on 1 Sept.
Anna over rated Triple3, or maybe it's just not my cup of tea.
Wish we had gone for The Line at ShangriLa.

We got lost at Mandarin Gardens, the restaurant is so secluded I swear.
But the foods damn good and reasonable.
I love Thaipans butter squids.
I'm bringing the girls next time haha.

Today's Angels birthday.
Happy Birthday Angel, I love you.
xoxo